New Year

The start of the new year wasn't the best, and I have my boyfriend to blame for that. But after all of this happened, my brother made me realize that life is too short for being mad at little things and making it into something bigger than it's supposed to be. He pointed out all of the holes in the walls, the many times he made my parents and I worry when we really weren't supposed to, the many times he'd run away, the two times he tried to kill himself, and the one time he actually ended up in the hospital. He sees me ending up like him anytime soon because I have the same anger problem as he does. I always let the littlest things get to me. Whenever someone gets mad at me, I always get mad at that person when I'm really not supposed to, and that changes everything. When I get mad, I always keep my anger in, and nothing good happens. I always end up isolating myself from everyone, making it hard for my family to talk to me, and so much more. But that's gonna change. I've seen what anger does to my brother, and other people. I've seen how much it not only hurts myself, but others as well. And that's gonna change. I'm no longer keeping my anger in just because I'm afraid to tell someone straight up that I'm mad at them. I'd rather do that than keeping it in, and letting it build up. And in the long run, turns into something worse than it's supposed to be. It's time for a change. Here's to the new year.