fb's bestfriend.

Okay, so I finally met her. You're happy now, she's happy now. And what? I know what you felt for her. Did you seriously think that I was gonna put up an act and actually act normal around her? You left me couple times in Borders and went to some other place of the store, with her! Leaving me with your cousins just saying random comments to pictures in books. I knew how it felt to be left on the side when someone else's bestfriend was around. Why do you think I never actually took you to meet one of them? Well except Misa, but it didn't take me much to get her to meet you guys. You've been wanting me to meet her for couple months now, and now she finally shows. I mean, I'm not saying I don't like her. I do, she's cool. But when I bring her up, I don't want you to just keep going on about her. I don't need to know anything about her if I don't ask for it. Unnecesary information isn't wanted around me. It hurts to know that me and her are both alike. That's why it was so easy for you to like me. We're both juniors, we both act retarded, we both never stop when it comes to advice, and both very blunt about it, we're both very random, and we're nice. The only difference about her is that academically, she's way better than me. She's been getting a 4.0 since she was a freshman. Shooot, the best you'll get outta me is a 2.8, maybe a 3.0 if I actually try. And she's much more athletic than I am. Mhm, I got big calves, for doing what? Nothing. She loves adrenaline. I don't. I know you guys like going where ever and jump off of high rocks or whatever. And you can't even get me to the beach. To me it seems like I'm so much of a downgrade. And I never let it register in my head until now. Until I finally met her. The Lt. Governors daughter. See! She even has a label for her. And what do I have that a lot of people know me as; Jr's little sister, or Loren's older cousin. Wtf.

Ugh, this frustrates me. It feels like I'd have to live in her shadow for who know's how long we'll last. I wish I didn't have to see how you two really are together. I wish I didn't have to see how you felt around her. Even though the feelings aren't there, I could still see it. But no worries, I'll try not to let this change us.