I got my thing,

Last night was crazy.
Black out during practice at misa's,
everyone yelling and running all over the place.
Yet, I still had fun.
Dancing with HIM make me feel so.. so good.
But I can't do anything about it.
I got my thing, and his thing is wanting to be with me.
Why does things always have to end up that way?
Why can't that department be so easy to just get through?
I hate the feeling that once you feel that you made the right decision
you always end up feeling like crap somehow.
It saddens me, it brings me down.
It actually makes me think not twice,
but maybe five times before I actually do my thing.
We've straightened things out,
we said what was needed to be said,
but the satisfaction still isn't there.
I know I got this.
I just gotta live it through, no matter where my decision takes me.